Black thursday
Thursday, November 6, 2008
I SCREWED IT UP!!!
I am totally busted for radio presentation! I stayed up till 2am for 2 nights to rehearse my radio script, and rehearse it many times over again while waiting for my turn. I shivered,trembled because of the extreme cold in the presentation suite room. When it was about to be my turn,i felt a gush of adrenaline rush running down my spine. I paced up and down around the room and went to receive hugs of encouragement from simin,singyee and zhihui because i felt i really need those hugs to boost my confidence.
Everything started a little rocky,with a few short pauses...And when i was about to play my last song,the Cd player showed a "no disc"sign. THAT was when i panicked,i was scrambling to fill in words, struggling to think of a way out. I played the wrong song, because of that i can't even do my 踩歌, even my own opinions about the story and song was Gone! Never was i prepared for this, it was not within my control. So,i had to stupidly say something to cover for my dumbest mistake. Yar, and i don't think it even help. I can just imagine the look of my lecturer's face. "what happen? oh no,this girl is gonna screw her presentation..." His reaction may be sighing silently and shaking his head while he marks down a BIG "F" in his sheet of grading sheet. Even if i don't fail this graded assignment, i will be the person with the most pathetic grade in my class. Given the fact that, I am the only person who actually made a blunder and screwed my presentation. Everyone did a complete presentation and I... hate myself for that making that mistake.
I am not someone who is very superstitious. From the day when we drew lots to pick our sequence for this presentation,i had been quite optimistic even though i picked the unlucky number 13. This is going to sound confusing. I dislike no.13,but i convince myself not to be so concerned about the number i picked. At first, my heart was praying and hoping that i can have my favourite lucky 7. Yes, and i psychoed myself that 13 is "such a nice number,it's not friday the unlucky 13,it may be my lucky number..." Ya,whatever! It's definitely and ultimately NOT my lucky number. Call me superstitious if you think i am, i'll accept it. I am more worried it'll affect my grades badly cause my gpa is gonna suffer! Hence,I emo-ed the entire afternoon. Putting up a smile was difficult. It only made me feel worse. I can't laugh out loud, all i can do was to put up was a weak smile on my emotionless face and say "yeah, i'm fine".
the "legendary" unlucky 13
♥ wanyan
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